Face the Mirror

An introduction is in order; I’m Kami. I’m nineteen years old and in my second semester of my freshman year of college. Since I was fourteen, I’ve struggled on and off with EDNOS [Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified] and other forms of disordered eating habits.

My motive behind starting this blog is to get in shape and lose weight in a healthy manner - meaning maintaining a healthy diet and not overworking myself to burn off every calorie I’ve consumed within a day’s basis. Not only that though, I’m creating this as a means of keeping myself, as well as others, motivated and positive. I want to prove to myself that I can do this, and I want support in the process; not necessarily from everyone on the internet, but friends and family as well… I want proof that I can be healthy and not obsess about weight or food or anything else that has seemed to rule my life for the last five years.

It sounds camp, I know, and cliché and every other adjective you could possibly stamp on it to give it some sort of negative connotation. But right now, this is all that I have.

Yes, I am at the lowest weight I’ve been at since I was about twelve, which is only about 125, but this isn’t really about weight loss. This is just about getting my body in shape and toning up what I do have. I have reached a point in my life where I am starting to become proud of my body. I’ve never experienced that before, and I would like to become even more proud of it, by building up muscle and getting rid of some of the loose skin and flab that I still have.

My goal is simple, boost my self esteem and teach myself how to face the mirror without the constant need to pick out every single flaw that I have.

So who’s with me?